resurrection(复活)- 第80部分

The　crowd　was　silent。　One　convoy　soldier　pulled　away　the　girl；
who　was　screaming　desperately；　while　another　manacled　the
prisoner；　who　now　submissively　held　out　his　hand。

〃Take　her　to　the　women；〃　shouted　the　officer；　arranging　his　sword
belt。

The　little　girl；　whose　face　had　grown　quite　red；　was　trying　to
disengage　her　arms　from　under　the　shawl；　and　screamed
unceasingly。　Mary　Pavlovna　stepped　out　from　among　the　crowd　and
came　up　to　the　officer。

〃Will　you　allow　me　to　carry　the　little　girl？〃　she　said。

〃Who　are　you？〃　asked　the　officer。

〃A　political　prisoner。〃

Mary　Pavlovna's　handsome　face；　with　the　beautiful　prominent　eyes
（he　had　noticed　her　before　when　the　prisoners　were　given　into　his
charge）；　evidently　produced　an　effect　on　the　officer。　He　looked
at　her　in　silence　as　if　considering；　then　said：　〃I　don't　care；
carry　her　if　you　like。　It　is　easy　for　you　to　show　pity；　if　he　ran
away　who　would　have　to　answer？〃

〃How　could　he　run　away　with　the　child　in　his　arms？〃　said　Mary
Pavlovna。

〃I　have　no　time　to　talk　with　you。　Take　her　if　you　like。〃

〃Shall　I　give　her？〃　asked　the　soldier。

〃Yes；　give　her。〃

〃Come　to　me；〃　said　Mary　Pavlovna；　trying　to　coax　the　child　to
come　to　her。

But　the　child　in　the　soldier's　arms　stretched　herself　towards　her
father　and　continued　to　scream；　and　would　not　go　to　Mary
Pavlovna。

〃Wait　a　bit；　Mary　Pavlovna；〃　said　Maslova；　getting　a　rusk　out　of
her　bag；　〃she　will　come　to　me。〃

The　little　girl　knew　Maslova；　and　when　she　saw　her　face　and　the
rusk　she　let　her　take　her。　All　was　quiet。　The　gates　were　opened；
and　the　gang　stepped　out；　the　convoy　counted　the　prisoners　over
again；　the　bags　were　packed　and　tied　on　to　the　carts；　the　weak
seated　on　the　top。　Maslova　with　the　child　in　her　arms　took　her
place　among　the　women　next　to　Theodosia。　Simonson；　who　had　all
the　time　been　watching　what　was　going　on；　stepped　with　large；
determined　strides　up　to　the　officer；　who；　having　given　his
orders；　was　just　getting　into　a　trap；　and　said；　〃You　have　behaved
badly。〃

〃Get　to　your　place；　it　is　no　business　of　yours。〃

〃It　is　my　business　to　tell　you　that　you　have　behaved　badly　and　I
have　said　it；〃　said　Simonson；　looking　intently　into　the　officer's
face　from　under　his　bushy　eyebrows。

〃Ready？　March！〃　the　officer　called　out；　paying　no　heed　to
Simonson；　and；　taking　hold　of　the　driver's　shoulder；　he　got　into
the　trap。　The　gang　started　and　spread　out　as　it　stepped　on　to　the
muddy　high　road　with　ditches　on　each　side；　which　passed　through　a
dense　forest。


CHAPTER　III。

MARY　PAVLOVNA。

In　spite　of　the　hard　conditions　in　which　they　were　placed；　life
among　the　political　prisoners　seemed　very　good　to　Katusha　after
the　depraved；　luxurious　and　effeminate　life　she　had　led　in　town
for　the　last　six　years；　and　after　two　months'　imprisonment　with
criminal　prisoners。　The　fifteen　to　twenty　miles　they　did　per　day；
with　one　day's　rest　after　two　days'　marching；　strengthened　her
physically；　and　the　fellowship　with　her　new　companions　opened　out
to　her　a　life　full　of　interests　such　as　she　had　never　dreamed　of。
People　so　wonderful　（as　she　expressed　it）　as　those　whom　she　was
now　going　with　she　had　not　only　never　met　but　could　not　even　have
imagined。

〃There　now；　and　I　cried　when　I　was　sentenced；〃　she　said。　〃Why；　I
must　thank　God　for　it　all　the　days　of　my　life。　I　have　learned　to
know　what　I　never　should　have　found　out　else。〃

The　motives　she　understood　easily　and　without　effort　that　guided
these　people；　and；　being　of　the　people；　fully　sympathised　with
them。　She　understood　that　these　persons　were　for　the　people　and
against　the　upper　classes；　and　though　themselves　belonging　to　the
upper　classes　had　sacrificed　their　privileges；　their　liberty　and
their　lives　for　the　people。　This　especially　made　her　value　and
admire　them。　She　was　charmed　with　all　the　new　companions；　but
particularly　with　Mary　Pavlovna；　and　she　was　not　only　charmed
with　her；　but　loved　her　with　a　peculiar；　respectful　and　rapturous
love。　She　was　struck　by　the　fact　that　this　beautiful　girl；　the
daughter　of　a　rich　general；　who　could　speak　three　languages；　gave
away　all　that　her　rich　brother　sent　her；　and　lived　like　the
simplest　working　girl；　and　dressed　not　only　simply；　but　poorly；
paying　no　heed　to　her　appearance。　This　trait　and　a　complete
absence　of　coquetry　was　particularly　surprising　and　therefore
attractive　to　Maslova。　Maslova　could　see　that　Mary　Pavlovna　knew；
and　was　even　pleased　to　know；　that　she　was　handsome；　and　yet　the
effect　her　appearance　had　on　men　was　not　at　all　pleasing　to　her；
she　was　even　afraid　of　it；　and　felt　an　absolute　disgust　to　all
love　affairs。　Her　men　companions　knew　it；　and　if　they　felt
attracted　by　her　never　permitted　themselves　to　show　it　to　her；
but　treated　her　as　they　would　a　man；　but　with　strangers；　who
often　molested　her；　the　great　physical　strength　on　which　she
prided　herself　stood　her　in　good　stead。

〃It　happened　once；〃　she　said　to　Katusha；　〃that　a　man　followed　me
in　the　street　and　would　not　leave　me　on　any　account。　At　last　I
gave　him　such　a　shaking　that　he　was　frightened　and　ran　away。〃

She　became　a　revolutionary；　as　she　said；　because　she　felt　a
dislike　to　the　life　of　the　well…to…do　from　childhood　up；　and
loved　the　life　of　the　common　people；　and　she　was　always　being
scolded　for　spending　her　time　in　the　servants'　hall；　in　the
kitchen　or　the　stables　instead　of　the　drawing…room。

〃And　I　found　it　amusing　to　be　with　cooks　and　the　coachmen；　and
dull　with　our　gentlemen　and　ladies；〃　she　said。　〃Then　when　I　came
to　understand　things　I　saw　that　our　life　was　altogether　wrong；　I
had　no　mother　and　I　did　not　care　for　my　father；　and　so　when　I　was
nineteen　I　left　home；　and　went　with　a　girl　friend　to　work　as　a
factory　hand。〃

After　she　left　the　factory　she　lived　in　the　country；　then
returned　to　town　and　lived　in　a　lodging；　where　they　had　a　secret
printing　press。　There　she　was　arrested　and　sentenced　to　hard
labour。　Mary　Pavlovna　said　nothing　about　it　herself；　but　Katusha
heard　from　others　that　Mary　Pavlovna　was　sentenced　because；　when
the　lodging　was　searched　by　the　police　and　one　of　the
revolutionists　fired　a　shot　in　the　dark；　she　pleaded　guilty。

As　soon　as　she　had　learned　to　know　Mary　Pavlovna；　Katusha　noticed
that；　whatever　the　conditions　she　found　herself　in；　Mary　Pavlovna
never　thought　of　herself；　but　was　always　anxious　to　serve；　to
help　some　one；　in　matters　small　or　great。　One　of　her　present
companions；　Novodvoroff；　said　of　her　that　she　devoted　herself　to
philanthropic　amusements。　And　this　was　true。　The　interest　of　her
whole　life　lay　in　the　search　for　opportunities　of　serving　others。
This　kind　of　amusement　had　become　the　habit；　the　business　of　her
life。　And　she　did　it　all　so　naturally　that　those　who　knew　her　no
longer　valued　but　simply　expected　it　of　her。

When　Maslova　first　came　among　them；　Mary　Pavlovna　felt　repulsed
and　disgusted。　Katusha　noticed　this；　but　she　also　noticed　that；
having　made　an　effort　to　overcome　these　feelings；　Mary　Pavlovna
became　particularly　tender　and　kind　to　her。　The　tenderness　and
kindness　of　so　uncommon　a　being　touched　Maslova　so　much　that　she
gave　her　whole　heart；　and　unconsciously　accepting　her　views；
could　not　help　imitating　her　in　everything。

This　devoted　love　of　Katusha　touched　Mary　Pavlovna　in　her　turn；
and　she　learned　to　love　Katusha。

These　women　were　also　united　by　the　repulsion　they　both　felt　to
sexual　love。　The　one　loathed　that　kind　of　love；　having
experienced　all　its　horrors；　the　other；　never　having　experienced
it；　looked　on　it　as　something　incomprehensible　and　at　the　same
time　as　something　repugnant　and　offensive　to　human　dignity。


CHAPTER　IV。

SIMONSON。

Mary　Pavlovna's　influence　was　one　that　Maslova　submitted　to
because　she　loved　Mary　Pavlovna。　Simonson　influenced　her　because
he　loved　her。

Everybody　lives　and　acts　partly　according　to　his　own；　partly
according　to　other　people's；　ideas。　This　is　what　constitutes　one
of　the　great　differences　among　men。　To　some；　thinking　is　a　kind
of　mental　game；　they　treat　their　reason　as　if　it　were　a　fly…wheel
without　a　connecting　strap；　and　are　guided　in　their　actions　by
other　people's　ideas；　by　custom　or　laws；　while　others　look　upon
their　own　ideas　as　the　chief　motive　power　of　all　their　actions；
and　always　listen　to　the　dictates　of　their　own　reason　and　submit
to　it；　accepting　other　people's　opinions　only　on　rare　occasions
and　after　weighing　them　critically。　Simonson　was　a　man　of　the
latter　sort；　he　settled　and　verified　everything　according　to　his
own　reason　and　acted　on　the　decisions　he　arrived　at。　When　a
schoolboy　he　made　up　his　mind　that　his　father's　income；　made　as　a
paymaster　in　government　office　was　dishonestly　gained；　and　he
told　his　father　that　it　ought　to　be　given　to　the　people。　When　his
father；　instead　of　listening　to　him；　gave　him　a　scolding；　he　left
his　father's　house　and　would　not　make　use　of　his　father's　means。
Having　come　to　the　conclusion　that　all　the　existing　misery　was　a
result　of　the　people's　ignorance；　he　joined　the　socialists；　who
carried　on　propaganda　among　the　people；　as　soon　as　he　left　the
university　and　got　a　place　as　a　village　schoolmaster。　He　taught
and　explained　to　his　pupils　and　to　the　peasants　what　he
considered　to　be　just；　and　openly　blamed　what　he　thought　unjust。
He　was　arrested　and　tried。　During　his　trial　he　determined　to　tell
his　judges　that　his　was　a　just　cause；　for　which　he　ought　not　to
be　tried　or　punished。　When　the　judges　paid　no　heed　to　his　words；
but　went　on　with　the　trial；　he　decided　not　to　answer　them　and
kept　resolutely　silent　when　they　questioned　him。　He　was　exiled　to
the　Government　of　Archangel。　There　he　formulated　a　religious
teaching　which　was　founded　on　the　theory　that　everything　in　the
world　was　alive；　that　nothing　is　lifeless；　and　that　all　the
objects　we　consider　to　be　without　life　or　inorganic　are　only
parts　of　an　enormous　organic　body　which　we　cannot　compass。　A
man's　task　is　to　sustain　the　life　of　that　huge　organism　and　all
its　animate　parts。　Therefore　he　was　against　war；　capital
punishment　and　every　kind　of　killing；　not　only　of　human　beings；
but　also　of　animals。　Concerning　marriage；　too；　he　had　a　peculiar
idea　of　his　own；　he　thought　that　increase　was　a　low